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Progress over perfection

It’s hard to believe I’ve been an amputee for three whole years. I still remember my first steps post-surgery, A bright purple hospital sock on my one remaining foot and a big metal walker by my bedside, ready and waiting for me to build up the courage to let all the blood rush to the end of my residual limb…

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I felt you there, Dad

There’s a permanence to loss that’s haunting. Your heart wants so badly to have your loved one back that it aches with the reality that you will never again have the chance to hold them and tell them what they meant to you…

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Big Betsy Energy

You know when you need that extra push to help you climb a little higher? Like you start to doubt yourself for a moment and wonder if you were Insane to even try the hike as your one remaining leg shakes like a leaf in the windy Arizona landscape…

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What If?

How many times have you wondered what if? After the opportunity passed, I bet you wondered, "what if I tried" far more than you think, "what if I failed." After all, life is just a giant web of decisions and winding roads that take us this way or that way…

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What it’s like being this unique

Being unique is lovely, but at times it can be a burden. Nonconforming body shape, unusual gait, emotional commotion, and the eyes of the public can all stack up and create a mile-high load that feels like it might crush you…

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Routine Rut

Has your life been feeling like Groundhog Day lately? Every day, just like the last, as if you are living in a simulation. For many of us living with a disability, routine is the prescription for a healthy lifestyle…

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Anti-hero

If you've ever felt like an imposter, pull up a chair. Sometimes on sleepless nights, we become the anti-hero in our own story, the boulder that blocks our path to success, the fly in our glass of Chardonnay…

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Why you should care about accessibility even if you're not disabled

When I had two fully functioning legs, I went to plenty of places that could only be reached by climbing, stepping up, down, or even jumping. A few times, I wondered why elevators, ramps, and other accessible means weren't available at these locations, but I didn't let it anger me the way I do now. I didn't voice my concerns for those unable to climb, step, or jump, and I didn't post about it online or send an email…

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Friends who have your back while climbing up a hill

Last week I spent five magical days between Sonoma and San Francisco with my friends. This girls' trip was the deep breath my soul needed. And as it turns out, my friends are the support system I didn't know I still needed. I went into this trip hopeful yet nervous about how my prosthetic would handle walking on the uneven dirt paths of a vineyard and up the incredibly steep streets of San Francisco. But I wasn't about to worry myself into missing an adventure, and after several major bumps in the road that threatened to cancel our trip, I learned that my friends were just as determined to drink all the wine in Sonoma as I was…

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Mercury In Retrograde

Three times a year, an optical illusion occurs during which the planet Mercury appears to travel backward across the sky. This period is referred to as Mercury Retrograde. Because mercury is known as the communication planet in astrology, astrologists warn of the potential effects this can have on us and all of our relationships. Miscommunication, major shifts in mood, and technology issues are also commonly attributed to mercury retrograde…

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You are never a lost cause

Have you ever felt like a dirty penny on the sidewalk? Too tarnished to tell if it was even heads up, scuff marks dulling its shine, no doubt from all the shoes that stepped all over it like it wasn't good luck—just waiting and hoping for rain to wash away its scars and make it new again…

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