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Five things that have gotten easier now that I'm not a brand new amputee

Something magical happened today. I started thinking about everything that used to be so much harder when I was a brand new baby amputee. Instead of thinking about all the things I struggle to do since losing my right leg above the knee, I made a list of what I've gotten better at over the last 3+ years. And I think I've made quite the lemon drop martini out of a sour lemon, if I do say so myself…

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You're not broken even though you feel like it.

Some days, I feel like a brand new coffee mug, caffeinated, polished, and full of the good stuff, ready to pour onto others. Some days I feel like a rusty old teacup with cracked edges. Empty and damaged…

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If you lost your Father, start here.

If you lost your Father, start here. If you never got to know him, start here. If you never got to be one... start here.

Today, we celebrate Father's Day. I can already smell the grills firing up as the neighborhood fills with families riding bikes or playing catch in their front yards…

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I had a nightmare that my prosthetic leg drowned.

I wear a microprocessor knee prosthesis. A device that is computerized and helps make walking overall safer and makes hills, ramps, and steps more manageable. I often wear a protective cover over, and I ALWAYS keep it away from water. That's right, it's not waterproof. Most computerized knees are slightly water resistant but don't hold up to being submerged in water. This has caused me to panic a hand full of times…

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Feeling fine and thirty-Nine

m laying in bed on the eve of my 39th birthday with a sinus infection I probably would have partied through in my twenties, and I'm Wondering when I started to appreciate all the little life lessons that brought me to this point. Thirty-nine trips around the sun, Thirty-nine candles blown out, each wish wiser than the last. Somewhere in time, I realized that I will always be my Mom's baby, no matter how much gray hair I grow, and It doesn't matter how much you think you know. Sometimes, you are just flat-out wrong. Perhaps my favorite life lesson that took ages to learn is that of self-love…

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Rising from the ashes of your tumor

Cancer isn't just something that happens to you, It attacks each and every part of your life until you can hardly remember what being healthy feels like. Despite that, every day I hear stories of people who have taken a terrible situation and made something beautiful from it. My hope is renewed as I read about charities started by the very same individuals that could have benefited from them years ago, now paying it forward for future generations of cancer patients needing support and resources. Paralympic athletes are snowboarding their way to gold medals after losing a leg to cancer, as children with limb differences watch on, eyes wide and sparkling. The biggest lesson cancer teaches all of us is that every morning we get the luxury of opening our eyes is a chance to make an impact. Time to rise up from the ashes of our tumor and live a life not defined by the beast but instead by how we helped others and soaked up every ounce of life we were blessed with…

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Mental Health awareness month

Since May is Mental Health Awareness Month, I thought I would bring back a blog post from last May that still rings true in so many ways. We all need a little help at one point or another and there is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of if you are in that place right now. Please know you are not alone and help is just a phone call away. The national suicide prevention hotline is only three digits- 988…

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A Bandaid For The Blues

I make a lot of leg jokes. Actually, I make a lot of jokes in general. I believe that laughter is the best medicine, and although I don't typically struggle to find my way to a really good belly laugh, I do have moments where nothing feels funny at all. Sometimes the blues take over, and everything feels clouded over by a haze of midnight darkness, like I can't turn the lights back on. Despite knowing that managing my mental health is a lifetime commitment, filled with therapist appointments, affirmations, and a great support system, sometimes I need a little bandaid to help in the healing process so I can carry on living my best life…

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Disabled AT Disney

Disney World "The most magical place on earth" Every kid dreams of going, and every parent dreams of being able to afford the tickets. But what if you or your child is disabled? What kind of experience can you expect? …

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Leg Dreams

I’ve always had incredibly vivid dreams. So much so that, as a kid, I kept a notebook on my nightstand so I could wake up and write about the wildest ones. There were labyrinths and dream boyfriends before there were real boyfriends. And then there was that one time I had a nightmare that Robert De Niro was scratching my bedroom window. It turns out it was just bougainvillea thorns swaying in the wind. So when I lost my leg, I wondered if my dreams would be any different. Would I have one leg or two? Or would I become some superhero that hovered over the ground and had no need for limbs at all? …

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April 13th- Eras Tour

After losing The Great Verified Fan Ticketmaster War back in November, Karma stepped in just when I needed her and took me to The Eras Tour, and It was every bit as sparkling and bejeweled as I hoped it would be…

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What keeps you going?

When the road gets bumpy because it inevitably will, where do you turn? What helps you keep moving one real or fake foot in front of the other? Have you found your North Star yet? The one that guides you when all the lights in your world go out. If you've ever looked in the mirror and lost your damn mind, you know sometimes we don't even need outside sources to sabotage our path. We can do it all on our own…

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